July #19

there's this girl
that I used to know
and now begin
to know again.

she and i were
new friends full
of warmth and lies,
hopes that died.

it's interesting to watch
us reform some nebula -
she is eager and i
i am wary.

May #16

It's funny how sometimes I refuse to learn things,

let my curiosity get - well, not the better of me

but in control of me. 

Even after it's caused me so much pain

I will continue to pursue knowledge,

and maybe it's because

I have an inner quest for honesty

rather than comfort. 

It sounds true enough to me,

and so

I won't curtail my questions

or stop my subtle looking.

I just have to be prepared

for all the hurt that comes 

with looking when you're not supposed to.

(It's not just discovered presents,

but discovered crushes,

discovered hates.

And when I find them,

I must remember

it is my own fault.)