April #16

frustrated
tired
worried
angry
and
i don't want to be any of those

it would be such a relief
to let out my anger on her face
on her feelings
and to just purge it all

but i can't,
and i won't,
and i would never let myself anyway
you know that right?

no matter my big talk
she won't be hurt
at least not physically
unless she touches you
flirts with you

if i see her laugh
and look into your eyes
and give you a hug
that girl will be sprawled on the floor.

but as it is she is blameless, guiltless
so sometimes i must sit and stew
at the both of you
and make sick twisted plans
to come to nothing.