March #10

I don't understand
how
you can sleep
in my bed
next to me
every night


and then tell me
we're not in a relationship
and
you
can't say you're in love with me.
even though you feel it.




and i don't understand
how you can just lie there
and hurt me
and ignore me
and do these things
lead me on
let me love you

i don't understand
and it's getting harder and harder
to trust what you say

but because i love you
i want to .
do you hear me?
i love you.
and i can say it.